Things are about the same here with Elisa. We have an a appointment in the city in 2 weeks we pray we can get some answers.  We hate what all the medication is doing to her and how all this is effecting us as a family.  We go on Thursday to talk to our pastor again.  I have asks for meals--it is getting hard for me to cook sometimes.   Have a good night    Trina

    HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!

Thank you for all your comments.

Sunday morning in church I was not doing too well. I tried not to talk to people because I knew tears would come.  Well one of our pastors came by and saw me and told me he was praying.  Well I burst into tears--he sat right down on the floor near me and told with me. I said I was sorry for crying and he said  If you can not cry over your children in church  where can you. Sunday night  one of the other pastors wives gave me a book of poems. 

Everyone have a good day.  Trina

Another night of not being able to sleep.Thanks for all the birthday wishes to Erin.  This was the first birthday she was not at home for.

Things with Elisa really is not good. She is having side effects from one of her medication.  It is the one we can not take her off of right now because of what is going on with her right now.It is hard for us to watch this happening to her. I find I can only get on here on the evening or early morning.  She has some important appointments coming up that we are praying might give us some answers or at least point us in the right direction.

Thanks to all of you that has been praying for us.I have not lost anymore weight but still struggle with eating.

Everyone have a good weekend

Trina

      HAPPY 21 ST BIRTHDAY ERIN  WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

In less than an hour Erin will be 21.  HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN

Yesterday it rained all day.  It is suppose to be a little better today.

Thank you for all your nice comments. We are debating if we are going to put up a tree this year. If we do it will be much later because of what is going on with Elisa. Things like putting up a tree really does not seem that important to us this year. We are spending our time trying to find help for Elisa--that is no easy task in this state. People with autism Elisa's age falls through the cracks in this state. We still do not have a court date yet.

We are trying to leave this in Gods hands but sometimes we find that hard to do.

Everyone have a nice day.  I will try to get to your sites soon.  Trina

One thing I find myself doing more and more is writing my feelings down. The funny thing  is when things are quiet I have a hard  time writing--it is after having a bad time with Elisa and my heart is heavy that I can write. I wrote this the other day.

                           I feel Autism has made my daughter a prisoner.

                           A prisoner within her own mind.

                           I often wonder what she is thinking and feeling.

                           I so much would love to know so I can help her.

                           But hers is a world I can not enter.

                           A world that must be so frightening at times.

                           A world they must be so lonely at times.

                           I often wonder if she is crying to get out of

                           her world and into ours.

                          I wish I could take it all away--but i can not.

                          All I can do is leave her in God's mighty hands,

                          He knows her and loves her.

                          He puts His arms around her when she is hurting and needs comfort.

                     Written by Trina 

I have been wanting to write a protected post about what is going on but for some reason when I do most people can not read it. I do have everyone on my list. If any of you want to know more you may ask me and I will try to comment on your site or send an email yo you. Erin is not feeling well. The doctors feel it is from stress from school work and worrying about what is going on at home while she is away. Please pray for her.

Have a great day.  Trina

PS   I am beginning to start on my Christmas card list--I would love to send my friends here a card so if you want me to please sent me your address by e mail and I will be happy to put you on my list.

We are trying to keep things quiet around here. Elisa has been put on more medication--not really sure if that is the best thing.  Sometime I do not think they know what they are doing.