Lord it seems like You are quiet,

                                          I do not understand why.

                                          Your child is hurting and

                                           sometimes finds this all

                                           to difficult to handle.

                                           The pain is so unbearable

                                           at times I feel I can

                                           not go on anymore.

                                           I cry so much that I

                                           do not know where the

                                           tears come from.

                                          I feel I must have done

                                          something wrong to feel so

                                          all alone.

                                          I know You are there I can

                                          see You in Your wonderful creation.

                                          I know You care for me and

                                          love me and wants what is best

                                          for me.

                                          I know You are wanting me

                                          to wait on you. I know You

                                          are in control and Your timing

                                          is right but it is really so

                                          hard for me to comprehend that

                                          right now.

                                          I need to feel Your

                                         arms around me and

                                         hear You tell me it will be okay.

                                         Please help me to feel Your presence

                                         as I go through the struggles.

                                          I know You hear my prayers and

                                          there is a reason why you seem so quiet.

                                          Please help me to understand and

                                          give me the patience to wait on You.

                 Written by Trina

I still have my cold. I usually keep them for awhile. Thanks for all your comments. Things are still not impraving with Elisa. We feel the doctors are just guessing at this point. Mike and I are heart broken over all of this. It is really hard watching her go through this and knowing we can not help her. Our Pastor came over Monday to pray with me--that meant a lot since his little boy has been in the hospital for over 5 weeks.

I still have my cold--it does not want to go away. Things have not improved with Elisa. We are seeking God's will on the next step. All the meds they have or had her on seem to do more harm than good. It is so hard when there seems to be no answers and it seems like God is being really quiet in all of this but we know He has allowed this to happen and we must keep trusting in Him.  I must tell you that it is not easy.

Today I felt like I was falling over the edge of a cliff--but than I looked up and felt Gods hand reach down and took mine and brought me to safety.Our Pastor has told us in times like theses God wraps His mighty hands around us and tells us that things will be ok that He is in control.That is what our family needs right now.

I cry so often any more over all of this--there are times when the pain is so bad that if it was not for the prayers of people I know that I could not bear it no more.

Thanks dear friends I will try to get to your site soon.

Love Trina

Erin has decided to stick it out in that class. I have a really bad cold. Everyone have a good day.  Trina

No answers from the doctors yesterday. Elisa had bad panic attacks in both offices yesterday. They are going to try a different medication again--The last year she has been put on so much and taken off so much i feel she is a gunny pig. We were told because she has been on seizure meds for a long time that it could hurt her bones--so that means a bone scan in the future--not sure if she can tolerate that at this time.Erin is coming home today for a dentist appointment and will be leaving tomorrow afternoon. It will be good to see her. She has to withdrawal from one of her classes. Everyone have a good day.  Trina

Elisa's test results came back-they did not show anything.  She has 2 appointments today we are praying we can begin to find some answers as to why things are getting so bad. She will not even leave the house except when we go to the doctors and then she panics a lot. Thanks so much for all your comments and your prayers for us.  Trina

Still no news on the results of the test. I will proably be posting and commenting at night. Elisa takes up most of my time right now. Have a great weekend  Trina

We had some test ran on Elisa yesterday and are waiting for the results. Her doctor wants us to get a second opinion so heis trying to get us too see on of his frienda at  a hospital in our area.

Another night of not being able to sleep. Sorry I have not been on much. I really am struggling with a lot of things right now. I will try to get to your sites today.

It was good to see Erin. Elisa's birthday was okay. We had pizza and cake and ice cream. She will have a sleep over once we get things settled down here.

We have an appointment to see one of Elisa's doctors for blood work today. 

Everyone have a great day.  Trina

Tomorrow is Elisa's birthday. Erin is coming home to see her. Things are really not good right now but we are going to try to make it a great day for her.